My heart and prayers go out to you and your family I also have had a rough life mother and father addicted to crack cocaine had 2 kids by 17 by someone who was physically and mentally abusive to me mother died at 18 father of course was never really around have no family had to live street life to survive with my 2 kids kids father cant help he is in prison I am still only 24 yrs old. Through all of this I somehow find peace in knowing that our God is an awsome GOD you must believe pray and know that you are alright live that you are alright to see that you are alright Believing involves acting, speaking and thinking as thoug you have recieved what you have asked for. When you emit the frequency of having recieved it, the law of attraction moves, people events, and circumstancesfor you to recieve.